I’m not talking about obligatory follow through. I’m not talking about the need to reciprocate. I’m not talking about fulfilling someone else’s expectations.
I’m talking about the sheer bliss of giving BECAUSE YOU WANT TO.
With no other lingering, hidden feeling lurking behind the giving.
There’s no expectation in it, no regret, no pressure, no feeling that you “had to”. The one and only reason for the giving is because in your heart of hearts you want to. What you want. To who you want. Without needing, without WANTING anything back.
That’s right. My bliss lies in doing it. Utterly and completely in the doing.
The only thing I hope for on the other end is to see a bit of my joy reflected in the receiver’s reaction. That’s my payoff.
And what a fucking awesome payoff it is.